I started stims last night! Yay, finally! I feel like I have been on birth control and Lupron forever. Now all the juicy stuff happens. Here is my current meds list for your enjoyment:
Prenatal/ DHA supplement
10 units HCG
10 units Lupron
175 units Follistim
Tomorrow morning they will test my estradiol levels to give me the go ahead to continue. It will need to be 50 minimum, but at least 100 would be good. But then, if it's too high, that would be bad. Cross your fingers that all will be well and we will get the go ahead to continue!
Yesterday when I was out buying a mattress for Little Bub, I couldn't help look at some things I would like for my little baby. I was really enjoying myself when all of a sudden the realization hit that this might not work. I try to keep those thoughts at bay, but they creep in every now and then. There have been so many successes (and first try successes at that) by people on my support board that I try to remember that. I was given the highest chances of success my RE could give anyone, 65%. I try to remember that too. As I was choosing which curtains I would hang in the nursery and what type of newborn socks I would buy, I lost my breath when I thought of not ever being able to have a baby of my own. 65% is good, but it's not the 100% I wish I had. I got very dizzy and it was hard to breathe. I pulled myself together and left, then tried with all my might to think happy, positive thoughts again.
So, one day at a time. I am trying to just think about my estradiol levels for tomorrow and hope that will be the first small success.