Goodbye hope! It was nice knowing you for this short time!
Starting yesterday morning around 4 a.m. I began cramping. And not a little cramping, definitely AF cramping. The IVF coordinator says not to worry, blah blah blah, cramping and bleeding is normal for pregnancy. Thanks a lot, cramping and bleeding is also normal for my fucking PERIOD! Other than not being able to sleep through the night and waking up so sweaty I have to get a hair tie, I feel like I always do when AF is coming. Normally my AF cramps start in my back a week in advance, but I'm not having back pain. See what I'm doing? I've partially convinced myself it's done and over and partially convinced myself I still have a chance. My horoscope said yesterday that my new found optimism is dwindling, but will be back soon. Yep, that's how nutty I am. I can't trust myself, so I need to trust the random generic horoscopes that pop up on the internet.
I told my hubby of my paranoia this morning, but he is used to it. I told him they're trying to escape!! He kissed my belly and told the babies to stay in there, it's a good home, they will get to eat lots of Oreos and Little Debbies. Mmmm, I do think an Oreo breakfast is what I need this morning.
And a valium.