I was so excited the other day thinking that the end is nearing and our babies will be here soon. I told my OB that I know I have hounded her about how truly important it is to me for them to get to 38 weeks, but I admitted to her at the last appointment that I think I would die if I had to go that long (serious discomfort has begun, like crawling to the bathroom in the night to pee because it hurts to stand discomfort).
I want to hold my babies, I want to kiss them, and I want to know that they are healthy and perfect in every way. I also want my body and my health back. I have had hormones injected into me and tons of drugs taken and then side effects a plenty for the last several years. I have lived at the doctor and can't wait to be free of it and finally have what we've wanted and just get to live our lives.
The end is near!
But it's the end, the real "end." The end with a huge period at the conclusion of the sentence. We have decided for a variety of reasons that we will not attempt to get pregnant ever again and once I am done breastfeeding I will be back on the pill. So it's starting to become strange when I think about it. I feel like I have been pregnant for a very long time, but it seems a little sad to know that I will never feel little monkey's moving around in my belly again. I will never go to an ultrasound super excited to find out what's going on. I know I have much more exciting things to look forward to than this now that we will have our babies, but I'm getting a little nostalgic about this pregnancy. It's almost over.
It probably doesn't help that I have finished all three seasons of Big Love. That show is so entertaining! No need to use my mind at all, just sit and enjoy. I must find something else of the same caliber of entertainment ASAP. When I was on bedrest for OHSS, I got hooked on True Blood and was hoping that Season 2 would come out towards the end of the pregnancy, but I found out yesterday it does not come out until May 23rd or something like that. I'll have to go see what's going on at Blockbuster tomorrow. Or maybe I could actually attempt to use my brain and read a book. :)
We were happy to be done with the "bogo" pregnancy, too. The only time I really truly feel I might miss it a teensey bit is when I am sitting in the waiting room at the ob/gyn and I see the pregnant ladies there. Out in public, they don't affect me. People having sweet precious babies doesn't get my baby fever going. Just maybe the waiting room and remembering the fun and anticipation of each appt with our peri.
ReplyDeleteYou are getting very close to the end. But, that is truly just the beginning!!!!!
I am so happy for you!
ReplyDeleteCould you email me at mom.genes@yahoo.com or leave me a comment reminding me what you did when it came to 1. greens plus and 2. something you blended with frozen fruit? I can't find the e-mail and I'm wanting to get cranked back up next week. Thanks!
I know I fell off the commenting radar long, long ago (I know, lame), but I've still been following your journey!
ReplyDeleteJust wanted to wish you much luck and comfort during these last few days. I can't even imagine the discomfort and anticipation.
Can't wait to "meet" your babies!
Oh, and Big Love starts to take a nose dive at Season 4. =( Sad, but true. And Season 2 of True Blood is the BESTEST! Have you ever watched Dexter? If not, it's truly must-see TV (but not for the faint of heart...or stomach).
I would also recommend Dexter. Or I really enjoyed Weeds too.
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