Thursday, March 4, 2010

I Guess I'm Not a Doctor After All

I had a sucky doctor's appointment this morning. It was at the specialist, who I tend to take more seriously than my OB. They told me that I have to take the measurements and they are putting me on meds. I told them I will not and they can't make me, since I am so mature. I told them I can't afford the weekly cost of the test strips if I have to test 4 times a day. That really isn't true, I just don't want to spend $50 a week on them.

But then they threw it out there, the term no one wants to hear:


Yes, you heard correctly. Not monitoring my blood sugar levels could make one or both of my babies die. Obviously I cried. Not a super hardcore cry, only one tissue worth. What could even happen, which is much less serious, is that they could have blood sugar issues and it will make them sick. I don't want to make them feel sick in their first days of life.

Then we did the weekly ultrasound/BPP. Although they have stayed the same weight at weight checks for the whole pregnancy, in the last few weeks they have started being different. Baby B is now 11% smaller than Baby A. She also isn't kicking enough.

The nurse took me in her office to have a meeting regarding GD and she gave me lots of good information. She looked at my chart and gave me a funny look. She then told me that I didn't really fail the 3 hour glucose test, which I already knew. Just the first hour was a little over. So she told me that she would deny it if I ever told anyone, but taking my fasting blood sugar level would suffice and maybe once or twice after some meals. Then she told me about kick counts and how I need to start monitoring that. I know Baby A is a crazy mover so I'm not worried about him, and Baby B moves, but I would be sure unless I have had sugar that she doesn't move the ten times in two hours she is supposed to.

I left the appointment with a smile on my face. By the time I got to the car, I was crying my eyes out. I had mascara all over my face. I drove to the grocery to get a healthy salad for lunch. I didn't have anything to wipe my face off with but a dirty sock, so I did it. I missed a huge streak of black and didn't discover it until nearly 45 minutes later. Not one person who I spoke to told me this. Don't you hate that?

I just want my babies to be okay . . . . .


  1. I am so sorry you failed the GTTs. When I did (only by a couple points on one part, too) I did just what you are doing - stomped my feet and got upset. But, trust me - you'll get used to doing it and it's only for a few weeks anyway. you can play any game for a couple more weeks, Hon!! The doctors are right, there are scary reasons why you need to monitor your blood sugar. (My DDC lost a mom and baby due to uncontrolled diabetes.)

    A few tips... Jello fat free sugar free chocolate pudding rocks! And, with your serving size, you can eat half of it for one snack.
    Many GD women seem to find they can eat Mexican food without raising their sugar levels. It became one of the only restaurants we could eat in. (that and a spinach calzone I found at a local pizza joint.) My water actually broke in that Mexican restaurant!!
    The absolute worst reading I ever had was from an Arby's sand. no fries, just the roast beef sandwich.
    I took Glyburide (oral drug) to control mine and managed to stay off insulin. Do anything you can to avoid insulin and it's roller coaster.
    G&C had low blood sugar when they were born due to my GD. And mine was well controlled with the oral drug and diet. They had to go to the NICU for it, but formula brought them back up to a safe level.

    I probably should have checked BZ before leaving theis book on your blog. Sorry!

    Hang in there! This is for Ever and Ocean!! You can do this, Hon!!!!

  2. So sorry to hear about your emotional appointment.

    I'm thinking about you and your babies!! xox

  3. Your babies will be fine. They just have to say these things to cover their asses. You're doing everything you can for your babies and they are going to be great! My sister-in-law had twins last year, they were early and one of them was 5 lbs 3 oz the other was 3 lbs 15 oz. BIG difference in weight, but they both were okay and are thriving now just after their 1st birthday!

    Sending you a BIG cyber hug.

    (and yes, I hate when no one tells you you have stuff on your face.)

  4. I had GD with my twins and I had to inject myself with insulin before every meal and before bed. Definitely not fun but well worth it. My boys were born at 36 weeks 2 days via scheduled c/s and came home from the hospital as soon as I was discharged-no NICU time or anything. Follow drs instructions (at least most of the time) and everything will be perfect with you and your little ones!

  5. Hugs, are so experience, but I know you will continue to take good care of your babies. It may not be easy, but you love them so much and have always put them first...and you are almost there!...Lori

  6. Oh sweetie, everything is going to be okay. You know what to do to take care of you and your babies, and you'll do it. Everything else is beyond your control, so just try to stay positive. Hugs!

  7. I wanted to add that my boys were born via c-section because of their size difference and because one of my placentas was no longer working properly (5 lbs 0 oz and 7 lbs 13 oz at 36 weeks) and they are perfect in everyway. My little guy is now a few pounds heavier than his brother!

  8. Hang in there, lady. You've done nothing wrong and you are doing all you can for your babies. Sending lots of positive thoughts your way!


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