Last Minute Jitters

Yesterday went by really fast because I was so excited.

Last night time started slowing. It's only before 9 a.m. today but I didn't go to sleep until after midnight and then got up this morning at 6:30 a.m. I think today will be long and tomorrow will be an eternity. My plan was to get lots of sleep, but that's definitely not happening. I don't know what to do with myself. I'm trying to think of some way to space out the day to make it go by quicker but I can't think of anything.

The cramping and pressure have picked up quite a bit since Sunday. My stretch marks are now bleeding because they are so bad and my tummy is on fire. I'm kind of nervous for how my burning, bleeding stretch marks will feel after a surgeon cuts through them. I'm getting REALLY nervous for the c-section. I didn't read up on much because I'm thinking ingnorance might be bliss.

I realized that I just decided to breast feed but didn't take a class or anything. I don't know about pumping or what to do. I watched a YouTube video about tandem feeding. For weeks I felt like I had everything under control, but now I'm not sure if I know what I'm doing! Hubby is very excited, but also said he's worried about me because this won't be super easy. I thought of all the things I would do when not pregnant, but then realized I probably wouldn't be doing much but feeding babies, changing babies, eating, trying to sleep and hopefully taking a shower. I just can't wait to stop staring at this belly and actually get to do those things! I so hope that they are healthy and everything will be okay.

Tonight we are going to go on a nice date, our last for awhile! We have a lot to do around the house but I think a date is equally as important as cleaning the toilets.

Tomorrow is my last OB appointment and my last day as a preggo . . . eek!