Hot Hormonal Mess

I love ultrasound days, but today just wasn't the best. Venting and whining coming, you have been warned!

Where I work when there is a snow day at school I still work and kids still come. I won't go into details, but this is just beyond the capacity of employees there to deal with. I'm not going to go into details in the event someone is reading. My new goal in life is to find a job where there are no people. Does anyone have any ideas? My hormones and aching vagina can't tolerate this. The countdown has begun to maternity leave, which with twins, can start around 28 weeks. That's only a month and a half.

Well, because no one can ever follow directions, I got a phone call early in the morning and could not get to sleep. I went to bed way late last night so I am working on not much sleep. This doesn't help my level of self control.

I laid in bed for an hour trying to fall back asleep because I knew the day would be hell. I got out of bed and ready for my ultrasound. I got there with my new insurance card which now makes me pay double the co-pay as in 2009 for the specialist. My insurance doesn't 100% cover the ultrasounds so I also pay extra for those. But it's okay my babies are worth it, so I tried to get over that.

The specialist office was packed! I got there the usual 15 minutes early and hubby wasn't there. I didn't think it was a big deal but then I got called really quickly. Still no hubby and I really wanted him to be there. So I tried to call him and my phone wouldn't work in the office. I got all ready and sat on the table. Then the tears started. Like not just a misty eye, bawling crying tears! The doctor and nurse came in and were worried. They were so nice to offer for me to wait until he got there but I didn't want to get behind all those other people. I then realized, and I was VERY embarassed already from crying, that I left my underwear on for my cervical check!! I felt like the biggest jackass on the planet. She said it was okay, that pregnant women cry all the time and it's not a big deal. I still felt like a huge loser.

Mike showed up and I didn't say anything which I think was totally awkward for the doctor and nurse. But I didn't want to say anything that would be bad. I did have good news, that the babies are very healthy and they are up to a pound, which is perfect. All their little organs were functioning and the were measuring great. My cervix is still closed up tight although I've been having many a Braxton Hicks contraction in the last few weeks. Huge relief!!

So we walked out and I maintained some dignity. Then I cried for the next 3 hours straight. I cried to hubby, who was trying not to laugh, which was good, because I would have ripped his balls off, and told him that it's not acceptable and that we only get to do this once and he should not miss anything! He apologized. I cried at Goodcent's like a nut job while ordering a sandwich. I cried at work, which is something I try to not do but unfortunately at my job there are plenty of things to cry about. Then I cried about nothing. All day. Now I get to drive home in a blizzard.

The good news is that I think my daughter is so adorable. My little man always hides from us and I want to see his face. He doesn't care, he just gives us the butt. Our little princess just stares right us. Today she even yawned, like whatever bitches, I'm so over you! :) I tried to think of that everytime I started a crying jag, and it helped, but those hormones are so powerful!