My first day of work was truly not that bad, I can't believe it! I did my fair share of carrying on last week and had one last breakdown the night before and really couldn't sleep that much. But the day of I put on my big girl panties and I didn't cry at all. Of course I watched the clock all day, but I work with kids and they were SOOO excited to see Miss Ashley so it made my day a little easier.
On the way home I was so nervous. I know they know I'm their mama, but they're just little babies so I thought they would forget about me. When I came in the door they both stared at me and I held them and played with them and they were happy. So I was happy. I even missed the Bachelorette because I was too busy getting snuggles from my sweeties.
I would still much rather be with them, but for now this seems manageable. I did come up with a genius plan to be with them next school year and it doesn't even include winning the lottery. It's an actual, real, feasible plan so we will see.