Ocean

In the womb, he was my wild child. Kicking, flailing, and flipping.



He is my little smile boy! He was even a smiling fetus.

This boy is maintenance. He LOVES attention and loves to be held. He still sleeps in Mommy's bed most of the time because he gets upset being alone in his crib. He will be crying and crying and as soon as he hits my bed, BOOM, he's done crying.



If he is hungry, you MUST feed him immediately. Even though I was sleep deprived to no end, I would crack up laughing when I would pick him up to feed him and he would curl up in a ball and chew on his hand making "num num" noises like a little animal. He did not like breast milk or formula, but loves soy milk. He is okay with rice cereal, but would prefer sweet potatoes or human flesh.



It is no work to get a big smile out of him. There have been many times that milk has gone slobbering all down his chin because he can't get through eating without smiling. Being high maintenance works for him because all he has to do is smile and he gets his way (well, at least with me).



He is Mr. Chatterbox. You can talk to him and he will talk and talk back. Or just smile. Last week he was in my bed flailing around and I picked him and and said "are you my little weirdo boy?" He made a grunting noise in response, so I got my answer!
I've never seen a little baby sleep like him. He makes lots of noises. He smiles in his sleep. He sticks his lower lip out in his sleep like he is going to cry.



He is very tall and strong. He was mad because I was trying to put him to sleep and kicking himself up on me with his strong legs.

Even though he is high maintenance, he's also very sweet. He loves to smile at anyone and he loves cuddles. When is Ever is wailing, he will not cry. I was sitting in the back seat with him and Ever was screaming like a banshee and he just kept looking at me with his lower lip sticking out. It was so adorable!

I love when I am feeding him his night time bottle and I whisper in his little ear and he will turn his head closer to mine for close snuggles.



I love my little boy!

WTF Wednesday

- On Bachelor Pad, they reduced it down to couples, which was a big shock. So the guys got to pick who they wanted to be in a couple with. Elisabeth is a few french fries short of a happy meal and continues to play mind games with her man. She basically has been black mailing him since the first show to be her boyfriend to stay in the game. Sounds like a marriage made in heaven right?

- I have been religiously playing the lottery and I still haven't won yet, wtf? What's worse is that I think I will actually win. Embarassing . . . .

- I am SOOO mad that I was watching Bachelor Pad because Real Housewives of New Jersey comes on at 9:00 here. Well it came on an hour early and I MISSED it!! I saw the end with a very awkward hug between cuckoo and Jaclyn. I also heard she will not be coming back. I have to say I am a little bummed because you have to admit that level of crazy is entertaining. And this can't be real right? These people don't really act like this, right?? I hope?

- Has anyone noticed the second season skinnies? You know, the reality people or TV stars that shed major pounds by the second season. I'll name a few - Caroline Manzo from Real Housewives of NJ, Ashley, the obnoxious daughter on the same show, Lea Michelle from Glee, Amber on Teen Mom, the entire cast of "Secret Life of the American Teenager" and there are many others. Maybe it's a good diet to see yourself on TV. I need some dieting help (hi, my name is Ashley and I'm a sugar addict) so maybe I'll have hubby video tape me for awhile tonight and then I'll watch it everytime I want to eat a roll of oreos dunked in peanut butter (yes, I really do that).

- People ask me frequently how to spell my kids names; Ocean and Ever. These are basic words of the English language and I find it embarassing that people have to ask. I even think "ever" is a sight word that you learn in Kindergarten. I know about half ask because they are not believing what they are hearing. The other half are asking because people spell very common names weird to make them original. This annoys me. I'll give you some examples: Jaczin (Jackson), Tylier (Tyler), Rion (Ryan), etc. Spelling your kids name different still gives them a popular name. I have had experiences where people are unhappy that their child's name gets spelled wrong, to which I want to reply, get used to it. By all means, this is America, spell your kid's name however you want to. Just because I like weird names doesn't mean I can't spell.

- This Saturday is September 11th, a day most of us will never forget. Well, some churches also want to make it "National Burn a Koran" day. What in the hell is wrong with people? That's just nasty and hateful and entirely unnecessary and will obviously provoke people to do things they don't need to be doing. Sigh . . . . Canada, here I come!

Best baby moments: They are like real little people now! They interact and smile and chit chat. They love to eat and are eating carrots, sweet potatoes and are about to try sweet peas. Ever is sleeping like a champion and Ocean is doing much better and sleeping in his own bed a majority of the night. I just worship the ground they walk on (lay on, I should say). They amaze me everyday!

A Sad Post

Last week in my working community there was a sad, sad tragedy where a young child lost their life. I don't want to post details as I don't want anyone to really know where I work and it was played out in the local media quite a bit.

It just really stuck with me this weekend. Last week after it happened I just felt devastated. When you have kids, these things become so much more difficult and hard to be around than they were before. I came home and got on the floor with my babies to play with them. I just wanted to be with them so badly. Once bedtime rolled around Ocean began crying. Normally hubby protests me putting him in our bed but that night be didn't give me any grief.

Everytime Ocean moved or made sweet baby noises or let out a little cry (he is a very restless sleeper)I cried too. I was just so thankful to hear those little noises, but sad to my core that another mommy was going to bed that night never to hear those sweet sounds again. It is so heartbreaking. Every single day I love my babies more and to think of spending years with my babies and then one day they are gone out of the blue is more than I can handle sometimes.

I spent lots of snuggle time with the monkey's this weekend. I just wanted to take a moment to remind you to give the people you love all the affection you can every chance you get because you just never know when it might be your last chance.

WTF Friday

- Abby asked if I watch Bachelor Pad. OF COURSE I watch Bachelor Pad!! This kind of reality TV trash is my favorite. If you don't watch it, it is a bunch of single people who are trying to date. They do competitions to win dates and people with roses are safe. Then they vote "Survivor" style. This is all for money, and of course, for a chance at love, ahem. This show makes me mad because, in my opinion, it is showing how dumb women can be when men are around. The men are doing the smart thing, which is trying to win the money. The women are falling in love with the men. One group of girls could have dominated the house but each one of them slowly screws up the plan by believing things men say. It makes me so mad!!

- In relation to the Bachelor, Melissa Rycroft is pregnant. They weren't even trying she says (good for you). I have never been able to stand Melissa. When she was on Jason's season and people told me that they loved Melissa I thought they must have some type of mental issue. Melissa was only on the show because it was on TV, she did not really care to be with Jason. When Melissa got dumped and everyone was outraged (which I thought was hilarious by the way), I could NOT understand how people didn't get she only wanted to be on TV!! Lo and behold, she is on TV a lot now and got engaged to some other guy a few months after the show wrapped. And people are still on Team Melissa? I am not surprised that she is pregnant and announced it to a magazine nice and early because we all know that getting pregnant is great press these days. Do you still buy what she is selling?? She is a fame whore! If you buy this still, please come to my house, I have some things for sale.

- REAL HOUSEWIVES OF NEW JERSEY REUNION. If you don't watch the show but have cable, find it and watch it. It is WTF-tastic!! Theresa threw the host into his chair like he was a rag doll. Danielle gets caught in a lie so many times. She also has two sex tapes currently out. WTF? WHY WOULD ANYONE IN THEIR RIGHT MIND MAKE A SEX TAPE THESE DAYS?? YouTube, blogs, even email and you could send a sex tape to a million people in a second. They also called Danielle out on why she doesn't use the plural form of the word "woman." Jaclyn really makes a fool of herself by acting immature. And as always, I truly love Caroline. There is a part two. WATCH IT!!

- Teen Mom is kind of starting to depress me instead of entertain me. I feel so bad for the way Caitlyn's mom treats her, she has an awful family life. I do have the mouth of a sailor, but that little boy in their house hears way too many potty words. My least favorite on the show is Amber. She is trying to get her GED but can't do it and work at the same time. What?? How do they pay their bills? I need to know the secret to being able to get my bills paid while hubby and I sit at home and fight with each other all day. She has the time to go on a diet that has made her a size 1 and we all know that's not easy (I could use some tips in fact). It's bizarre.

- Paris Hilton got arrested for cocaine possesion. She claimed the purse wasn't hers and also that she thought it was gum. Uh . . . . while I am no expert on what cocaine looks like I have a good feeling it doesn't look like a piece of Orbit.

- Briston Palin is on Dancing with the Stars. Enough said.

- I shamefully admit to have read all the Twilight books. In a matter of days. I was obsessed! If you are a fan, you will remember the birth scene of Bella's baby. It is INCREDIBLY disgusting. Absolutely sick. The director's have reported that they will not be toning it down for the movie. I think it's safe to say that kids should no longer be going to see these movies! Basically, the baby is trying to rip it's way out of her and Edward tears her open to save her life and she is then turned into a vampire. Eew!! Who thinks of something like that? I never saw the third ones. The books are awesome, the movies suck.

Am I missing anything?

Best baby moments: Our first zoo trip was last weekend! They also ate their first food, sweet potatoes.

They are both giving me a WTF look here. Poor babies can't even get through a feeding without being interrupted by Mommy's camera.



Here we are, a family of vampires. Can you see our pasty whiteness glistening in the sun?



**If you are a Resolve friend, you know today was a pretty sad and scary day. If you are not, all my family is fine and healthy. It was just an unbelievable day really. I must say I am thankful I got to take a moment to enjoy some senseless humor after everything that happened. I can't discuss it here, but just wanted to say an extra thank you for being a part of my story and thank you to all the bloggy friends that I read and keep me entertained!! It seems silly, but I truly enjoying getting to "know" everyone and on sucky days like this I am thankful for a place to escape in.**

I interrupt your regularly scheduled programming . . . .

I know it's WTF Wednesday, but we are going to have WTF Friday this week because today is a VERY important day in history!!

On September 1st, 2009 . . . .

after 9 months of trying to make babies without a doc . . .

8 rounds of Clomid . . . .

3 IUI's with injectibles . . .

68 sessions of acupuncture . . . .

4 months of FertilAid . . . .

Lots of tears and 17 sessions of therapy with a licensed professional . . .

and ONE IVF . . . .

I received this email from my RE's office . . . . .


CONGRATULATIONS!!! You are PREGNANT!!! (I am pretending to hear you scream right now :-)

Your level was 168 (VERY GOOD). Your progesterone was 20 (ALSO GOOD).

So...just continue your medications and come back in for a repeat lab on Thursday!!

Yea :-)

I did cheat and pee on a stick the night before, but hearing the beta was the icing on the cake!

I woke up in a happy mood and the babies have only been getting up once a night each so I was just a happy lady this morning. My boy was sleeping in my bed and he gave me big smiles when he woke up. My girl woke up an hour later and I went downstairs to see her and we played and she smiled and cooed for me.

September 1st will be a special day every year. I told hubby he better have cupcakes in hand when he comes home tonight!!