. . . . until I have to leave my precious babies and go back to work. It devastates me and I hate it. We went through the budget thoroughly and there is no hope for me to be at home with the critters. We are extrememly lucky that for the first year they will be staying in our home with my mom instead of going to a daycare. I am trying my best to enjoy the today and not worry about tomorrow, but it's hard. I have one year to devise a genius plan to stay at home or win the lottery. I don't buy lottery tickets so we know what I'm left with. Genius plan. I don't have one.
It's more about benefits than anything else. I am a government employee so my benefits are almost free. We can just about swing the bills, but the extreme cost of benefits at hubby's small company would be killer and obviously private insurance is expensive as well. So one of my plans could be moving to Canada.
When we had foster kiddos, one of them was sick and we had to take him to the ER. He was covered under state assistance and we paid $0 for his visit, which is much less expensive than what I would have paid with good insurance. So I could be a drug addicted neglectful parent and they would be taken care of.
Canada isn't very practical, but drug addiction is definitely a no go.
I'm crossing my fingers that going back to work won't be as bad as I envision in my mind. I will go to work and it will be nice to do adult things and then I will come home and cherish every moment with my monkeys in the mornings, evenings, weekends and holidays and it really won't be that big of a deal because millions of other women do it. That's all I can hope for I guess.
To cheer you up after all of that whining, here are some multi-cultural monkeys to brighten your day:
We'd love to have you here in Canada!
ReplyDeleteOh my word they are precious. I can't get over how much they look alike!! So cute.
ReplyDeleteI bet you will be surprised and enjoy being at work for some adult interaction... at least I hope so because I can't be a SAHM either and need you to tell me that you love it. :)
I am so dreading that day that I have to return to work and leave my babies *HUGS* Hope it goes smoothly for you. LOVE the photos!
ReplyDeleteWhat more could you ask for than beautiful babies wearing sombraros? What cool Aunt gave them that gift? Love the pics. xoxoxo
ReplyDeleteThe pictures are a riot! Love 'em!!
ReplyDeleteNow, about you going back to work. Yes, it will be hard on you, but you will also have the luxury of talking to adults! And, there are so many women who are better mothers because of their time outside the home and their time contributing to their family unit. You will be sending the message to Ocean and Ever that family works hard to supprt each other. Teaching them a strong work ethic right from the beginning is something that will carry them on to a successful future for themselves.
For more than 13 years, I was the lady in the Infant & Toddler room who mothers dropped their babies off with. I know how wonderful those working mothers are!!
It is not the quantity of time you have to spend with them, it is the quality. Because you will be working doesn't in any way jeopardize your Awesome Mom status!!!!
Your babies are so lucky to have you! They are adorable and it sounds like they're finally giving you some sleep at night - woo hoo!!
ReplyDeleteUgh - the insurance. Don't even want to think about how we'll scrape by when it bumps up after baby is born.
ReplyDeleteYour post really got me thinking. Before I got pregnant, I never pegged myself for a SAHM. Now I am already dreading what it will be like to leave the baby - and I'm not even due until October! So much easier when the little guy is along for the ride right now. :)