WTF Wednesday

- I'll start with the usual, Real Housewives of New Jersey. Kim G. continued her meddling ways and stirred the pot big time. I can't wait for the fight between her and Danielle next week. I found something extremely disturbing this week. Danielle, who is the resident nutjob, has two really sweet, seemingly normal children. Their mom is an ex-con who runs around with Hell's angels and is divorced and money grubbing of her ex. Jaclyn, who seems like a really sweet person, has a daughter who is a complete disaster. Immature beyond words and loves to cause trouble. How does that happen??

- The Gosselins have reached some type of custody agreement. Jon originally wanted full custody of all the kids, which would have honestly been a disaster because he is an idiot. They didn't release details yet, but he also wanted to renegotiate his child support as it was $20,000 a month!!!! That tool has the ability to make $20K a month?? Huh?

- The second season of Teen Mom has begun. Even while going through IF, I was shamefully addicted to "16 and Pregnant." This season looks to be quite the downer, which I will admit is a good thing because I was starting to think they were making teenage pregnancy look pretty glorious. Maci took her baby daddy to court in which the court decided he should pay a grand total of $200-something in child support a month. Ouch! Another one thougth they were pregnant again and in all dramatic fashion completely believed this before taking a HPT. She even made a doctor's appointment and had the look of horror on her face while waiting for the test to come back. Why didn't she just pee on a stick at home? I don't get it. Farrah, who needs a good bitch slapping finally got one from her mom, but it was way overboard and mom ended up arrested. The whole first episode was super depressing. I didn't even watch it last night, but I might do it rerun style.

- Have you ever read the commenting section at the bottom of People magazine online? It can sometimes get pretty interesting, and for me, it is interesting when they post something about the celebrities who are older and pregnant. Here are some comments regarding Kelly Preston's baby bump:

"She looks great. You all realize that the baby most likely was conceived using a donor egg, not Kelly’s egg, right?"

"I have to agree with Amanda also. It’s high risk pregnancies that should be discussed in front of the camera. Are they simply having a baby at almost 50 bc of the sorrow of losing Jett and Celine bc her husband is in his golden years and none of the danger is transfered to him. Look Kelly already when younger had a baby (Jett) with a problem I don’t wish any of them ill but I think clearly it’s dangerous for mother and child. I hope all remain helathy.I also think that if they hadn’t been more interested in their careers then having kids we wouldn’t be discussing this at all."

"I don’t think ANYONE (mother or father) should be having kids as they approach 50+ years old.

Not only is it dangerous for the mother and child, it also robs the child, down the road, of having parents who are healthy and present.

Imagine being a teenager with a parent in his/her 60s. It’s ridiculous.

My opinion."

"I am happy that this couple are having a baby and on the other hand, not so much. They lost a son and this is extremely difficult, but having a baby at this age is a little selfish…and this is just my opinion. I wish them luck and much happiness and hope that this baby grows up with both of his parents. That’s all…"

Oy . . .. this could go on forever.


Best baby moments of the week: New experiences!! They have tried food and also gone swimming at the pool! Well, not really swimming, feet dunked in the water. And yes, I took my post-baby body to the pool in a swimsuit.

Degrees of Infertility

I guess it's silly that I didn't realize it before, but there are so many different groups of infertiles. All infertility sucks, but you realize the deeper you move into it, that people feel completely different about each other.

I am a blog-aholic. I love to read blogs and I love to read people's stories on online forums. But don't be fooled that being an infertile in your mind means that you can be in the same group as another infertile. I noticed on one forum I belong to that people are branching off big time in different directions like never before. People who have done IVF more than a few times now cannot tolerate the conversations of people who are doing it for the first or second time. Then there are people who are using other people's eggs, and that's not even the same as the new group of people who use eggs from another country. On top of that, people who are parenting children from adoption want to be separated from people who are parenting children by birth. If you think about it there are all kinds of other groups too: people who just try for a long time, people who get pregnant by a miracle in between treatments, people who undergo a lap or an HSG and then wind up pregnant, people who decide to live child-free, etc, etc.

I can completely understand this as I have thought about the separation before too. I honestly didn't even consider people who get pregnant from using Clomid as infertile for awhile. Pop a pill and get pregnant? Sounds like a dream to me! Until I remember the day I was told I have issues and need to use Clomid. It felt awful. I cried and cried. Everytime Clomid didn't work (which was 8 for me), I was upset. So then I moved on. When I read of people who got pregnant with IUI, I think they are seriously the most lucky people and I don't want to even hear about it. Until I remember that the worst place I have ever been in mentally was with the 1st and 3rd failure of IUI. I remember thinking how awful it was that I had to resort to IVF, but then soon thinking that I am extremely lucky that it was successful the first try. I even have a little experience with adoption from when we decided we would not do IVF and got licensed as foster parents. I remember talking to a pregnant woman when we had our little foster baby that we hoped to adopt thinking we had something in common as we were both "expecting" a baby, when she made the asshat comment that at least if I didn't like my kid I could give it back but she had to keep hers. Infertility is such a rollercoaster. There is so much pain and jealousy involved, because no matter what, pregnancy is supposed to be free and easy (or so we were all told as teenagers).

I think after all the treatments I just became very desensitized to how hard it is at any phase of treatment after passing each phase. I also have to understand that I truly don't know what it's like to have had to move onto adoption because I naively thought that once you are a parent, you're a parent, and you are now all in the same club. It would be hard to listen to talk of birth and breastfeeding when you didn't experience it. I want to remember where I came from, but being in normal mommy groups without all the scars and pain is so much easier so sometimes it's sad to be a part of the infertility groups that I needed so much while in treatments. I'm trying to now work on the place where I can be sensitive to what others are going through but also not forget to enjoy without reservation every second of the bliss of having my babies. It's a weird place, but I've only been here for 3 months, so hopefully I will get it figured out someday and it did take over 3 years to get here.

Three - It's a Magic Number

That's a song by the way . . .

My monkeys had their three month old birthday on Thursday! I can't believe it. Their personalities are showing more and more everyday. Special things happened for their birthday . . .

1. We got their 3 month pictures taken at Target (gotta throw that in there for copyright purposes)! We didn't get many picture because after the MOST adorable smiles you have ever seen it quickly went to screaming and it was hotter than the Devil in the studio.













2. Mommy, Daddy and Grandma ate cupcakes from Smallcakes!



These cupcakes were so stinkin' good I can't even describe it to you, the frosting was a little chunk of heaven.

3. The babies got to eat too!! Yes, the pedi recommends between 4-6 months, but I know my babies are ready and mommy knows best. Ever does much better than Ocean and they have just had some once a day. We used organic brown rice cereal mixed with their soy formula. On every online community moms freak out if someone feeds their baby food before 4 months, but in real life I don't know a single person who actually waited until 4 months so if you are thinking of leaving a comment about how it's so bad for them don't bother. hehe





It was a fun filled week!

That being said, there will be no "Weight Watching" tomorrow. I absolutely refuse to hit the scale, mostly out of intense fear. I didn't have the time to work out once, I ate Oreos dunked in peanut butter for lunch one day, and see above the photo of the cupcakes. I guarantee they are at least 1,000 calories apiece and there are none left. Hopefully next week will be better! I also got my monthly gift for the first time in over a year, so that was just great. One of my favorite movie quotes of all time came from one of the "South Park" movie characters in reference to women: "I don't trust anything that bleeds for five days and doesn't die." True that . . .

WTF Wednesday

Yes, I know today is Thursday, but I am now gainfully employed and staying up all night with little monkeys so I sometimes lose track of things . . . .

- I am still weirded out by the whole Mel Gibson business. Isn't it crazy? I'm not condoning the nutso stuff he is saying, but isn't obvious she is egging him on? And if he broke her teeth why didn't she call the police when it happened in January? Again, the guy is obviously a few french fries short of a Happy Meal, but the whole situation seems off. Radar Online is slowly leaking more and more of the tapes, which is also weird. Things that make you go hmmm . . ..

- Tiger Woods took a big hit from his cheating ways and only made $90 million as opposed to his previous earnings of $128 million the year before. Boo hoo.

- People have been a little on the edge in the blogosphere and in online forums these days. I've seen a war of words regarding "cyber bullies," there was recently a big to-do about the always aggravating quote on a facebook page about how not trying will lead to pregnancy, and a few angry comments around from anonymous posters. It is no secret that people say many things to others online that they wouldn't have the cajones to say in real life. When I visit blogs, I usually go by the old saying "if you have nothing nice to say, don't say anything at all." I consider blogs journals and if I don't like it I move on. It's a little different when you are participating in an online forum so if you are sensitive or easily offended you just shouldn't do it. I'm really not into the anonymous posters though. The next rule of thumb in my book is "if you have nothing nice to say but you are going to say it anyway, you better have the balls to put your name on it or don't say it all."

- WTF of the week goes to a Federal court ruling that cheerleading is not a sport. Who in the F#$% cares about that???? The people of our society should be beyond pissed that tax dollars are funding something so stupid. Ugh . . . . Who has the time for this shit?

Best baby moment of the week: Ocean slept from 11:00 p.m. until 5:50 a.m. last night, woo hoo!!! I cannot believe how big my babies are getting. We are going to celebrate tonight and eat some cupcakes in their honor. :) They are 3 months old today!

Weight Watching 7/18

Week #2

Current weight: 154.0 (down 1.6 from last week, 155.6)

Lbs to goal: 14

Diet: I traded my anything diet for high fiber cereal and snacks and I ate a salad for lunch everyday with dark skinned fruit like grapes and strawberries. I upped my water intake quite a bit. I traded my evening baked good binges for a Skinny Cow ice cream sandwich every night.

Slip-ups: The usual, sugar. I ate a "Like It" sized bowl of ice cream from Cold Stone yesterday and I also had cookies, a Snickers and an Almond Joy throughout the week. I just love sugar!!

Excercise:

- 30 minutes cardio, weights, abs: 2
- 30 minutes cardio: 1
- Weights and abs: 3

I didn't lose a ton of weight but I am not attempting a crash diet, I want these 15 pounds gone and I want them to stay away so I have to do something I can live with. I need to continue to work on the sugar issue. I tried to at least do abs every night to work on those core muscles that got stretched to the max and then sliced and diced (not a great combo I don't think for attractiveness). I'm hoping that I didn't lose much weight because I'm gaining muscle for this flabby body that didn't see a workout for nearly a year! Woo hoo!